Im Agnostic (Warning* Some explicit language)

[writedis]

Im agnostic.

I question if I should keep chasing
Answers
A Bastard son that don’t believe in
Fathers.
I want a paternity test!
A Diagnostic.
Something scientific,
Give me proof GOD damn it!

But

Why these feelings?
Why love?
Why cry?
Why fuck, sleep and die?
What IS the meaning of life?

Aaargghh...
My head spins on its axis
like the exorcist.
Who?
Oh, forget it.
I think Im schizophrenic.

Im in two minds,
all I know is that I exist
Now.
And
when I sleep Im oblivious,
maybe its like that when we die?

Maybe.

[Danté]

Writedis

This reminds me of my own questioning that I went through at quite an early age.
I thought the first stanza had enough ambiguity for one to ponder multiple issues around the subject.
For me it’s simple, the now is captivating and at times like heaven is described, if there is something after it will be an appreciated bonus, if not I will have maxed it out in this one.
A very thoughtful subject, with no commonality in any particular answer, perhaps savour it all and grasp the tangible. I like this.

Many thanks

Danté

[David]

I think Im schizophrenic.

Im in two minds

I like that a lot. As a whole, this is probably not so much a poem as the recording of a state of mind that might lead to a poem, but good questions, and some decent half-answers (and further questions).

Cheers

David

[Elphin]

writedis

I think you could have stopped after the first stanza. After that its more like a series of notes.

elph

[writedis]

Thank you for your thoughts everyone, will take it all on board.